My Loving Son

Life

6/19/10

I just don't know how life can get so screwed up! I'm very frustrated an no one seems to notice or care,it's like they are the only ones that matter. People can't just tell you the truth the beat around the bush misleading you then end up hurting your feelings. Makes you feel like they had no intentions on doing,helping,or being with you to start with. Then they wonder why we keep our feeling and thoughts to ourself really doesn't matter anyway they never listen or do what you want why do they waste their breathe asking??????????????????
I guess there's one thing to say for our loved ones who's gone on they don't have to deal with this cruel world anymore !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life

6/19/10

I just don't know how life can get so screwed up! I'm very frustrated an no one seems to notice or care,it's like they are the only ones that matter. People can't just tell you the truth the beat around the bush misleading you then end up hurting your feelings. Makes you feel like they had no intentions on doing,helping,or being with you to start with. Then they wonder why we keep our feeling and thoughts to ourself really doesn't matter anyway they never listen or do what you want why do they waste their breathe asking??????????????????
I guess there's one thing to say for our loved ones who's gone on they don't have to deal with this cruel world anymore !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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4-18-2010

to my brother

4-18-2010

i miss u so much every and i wish u could have met abby and ryan thay would have loved u so much and would have such a great time with u ryan looks so much like you he has your big blue eyes and your smile he reminds me of you every time i look at him i prayed for a litte boy and after i had abby and i know u sent him to me i love you so much and wish you was here every today you all ways new how to cheer me up and know what to say when i am filling down i know u are are waching over us and my kids abby never met you but some how she knows ho o you are she looks at your pic and she will say uncle dusty it brakes my hart she never got to met you but i do tell her about you and how much you would have loved her i love u and miss you every day

Think before you silence your children!!!!!!

4-15-2010

We are all guilty,I know I am of constently telling our children to be quiet, shut up, go to your room or outside. I sit here today thinking about Tuesday when I went to see my son. How selfish and foolish I have been to take the preciouse words of my child and silence them, the very words I waited months and years trying to get him to say I taught him these words just to take them away. Why do we do this there is nothing more important in this world than our children do not put them off for friends, news, or your favorite TV show listen to them !!!!!!!!!
I went to see my son today I could see his preciouse face, the grounds and flowers were so beautiful. The birds sang and squirrels played. I talked to him about my day what all had been going on, his sisters , niece an nephew . I went on an on as I sat there in the silence,waiting for a reply nothing it was totally silent no talking, laughing, joking, or playing just silence. I could only imagine what it would be like to touch his face feel his embrace but most of all hear his voice. All the years I spent silencing him an now I just want to hear him one more time say I Love You Mom, Can I go here Mom, What's for supper Mom & oh yea our favorite Are we there yet / how much longer? I will never hear those words again so I want to share with you my friends do not make the same mistakes I did and end up living with the regret of taking my son's words away . I would give anything to hear all the things he tried to tell me but I was to busy and wouldn't take time to listen. Love your children listen to them God forbid but one day you to might not get to hear there voice again. Live an love everyday as though it's our last !!!!!!