The Power Of Me Part Two

Been crazy busy w/Bill's new site!

5-11-08

This time back to Bill's group has been a whirlwind of changes and he has proven to me to be the man I thought he was before others filled my head and things happened that lead me to think the worst. It is hard to delete all t his neg. from my blogs as so much growth happened because of it and I am really finding it hard to know what exactly to do...drop these 3 blogs,start a new,forget Power Of Me pt 1 all together..but how will anyone see the growth and how in life you can and will at times be wrong or over sensitive or excpect too much from others and maybe at times not enough from yourself? In the end of the journey or begining of a new one I will edit and rethink..but for now I must leave all the bad and all the good as it all is the journey as it happened and the growth is AMAZING! Hugs,Laura P.S Go to the NEW TRansformation group of Bill's as it is ALL that it should be and MORE!

My Fortune cookie right after I rejoined group & a never before seen watch of Grampy's

5-6-2008

I found this watch after 41 yrs of basically being here everyday ..I found it after getting my roll top desk & my mother asked IF it had "secret" compartments liike Grampy's desk..I said what ,the one I am looking at been here forever??? She said yes,go over to it and look inside in the middle colums and pull out..insede was this TINY pocket watch I NEVER saw in my life..it was like a little secret my grandfather waited to show me now..it means to me time is ticking & time stands still...as it is broken but that time stands still until we meet again & that time is ticking for me to get back on track and furfill my goals and lifes purpose!
The forune cookie says, "You emerge victoriously from the maze you've been traveling in" w/lucky numbers 13,15,19,23,27,31 oddly ALL important numbers to me...

The underside w/NJ made

5-6-2008

When I asked for a strong sign,I got this after talk of the CFL w/Diane

5-06-08

This was the strangest sign..I got off the phone with Diane ,telling her about all the crazy signs pushing me BACK to Bill Phillips Group,Transformation..This was the time we were talking about the cruise they have and a contest called CFL (Champions For LIfe) where THEY pick the winners. She asked me to contact Brain in Aus. and asked him if it was too late to join cause it was a week earlier or so. I went down cellar & started cleaning,I placed a garbage bag on the old medicine cabinet door & was talking to God,my grandfather or whoever was listening..and said. I want a strong sign,not a sign I can rethink into something else but a strong sign..the door ina bit maybe 10 min from hanging up the phne ,popped open by the weight of the bag..now I have seen the contents of this cabinet before many time..but this shaving mug from Old Spice was there and I looked at it closley and it said "Ship Freindship" on the front under a ship..I said "THIS is NOT a strong enough sign"..and flipped it over..lolololol...it was made in NJ..that is where Diane LIVES!!!! LOL..I think THAT was a strong enough sign...lol

I cheated & pasted this from my post on the board tonight

as I need to get CLEANING!

Today was AWESOME! It was like the Universe combined together to align in my favor..it is a RARE moment but 1 I will cherrish! I have been slacking w/my housework while getting to the bottom of my sons brain injury & treatment tactics. But still the 1st home visit for inspection for fostering is this Wed..I kept thinking "I wish I could reschedual until Mon. I feel too guilty though even having those thoughts!" I then came home to a message from THEM TO RESCHEDUAL UNTIL MONDAY! YEAH!! Then driving my other son who did so well loosing weight w/Carlo's help last fall says to me" I want to get healthy again,I want to work out w/you everyday,we are going to walk & go to that school we did before everyday walking 2 hrs!"LOL,I said "what are you physicic?" I just decided today to join the contest again as soon as it is available! He says "We won't wait,we'll get a head start & work on our stamina" DID I TELL YOU HE IS 14!!!LOLHe gets it from my Grandfather!Hugs *^* *^* *^*

Mondays ..

5-5-08

The Dr called early this am and told me Ryans records are ready for pick up so we can get them to the school for all the stuff they need htem for..they are pulling in alot of resources for Ryan etc etc...she also suggested counsiling to keep his attitude from slipping into a depression as head injuries alot of times have depression associated with them or as a result of feeling "different" or not able to do something easily or at all...theschool said they havea excellent counslier as well....I am GLAD the sun is out today since I have a ton of stuff to do here and Ryan has a baseball game this afternoon. Ryan being able to participate in baseball was aconcern they had but the Dr said it was FINE and will HELP his self esteem and social skills etc. as a parent so much breaks our hearts when things don't go as we plan or want but the Dr asures me everytime she talks to me I am a great parent so I guess I can't do much else except TRUST in God and his GREATER PLAN!!!! Hugs,Laura

A quote I made up yesterday

5-4-08

Pain without Laughter and Laughter without pain would be the one thing that is truly insufferable.

When I wrote this I wrote unsufferable but in hind sight maybe it is insufferable..which ever it is it all means you need them both to make life work...and without both life would not be as rich as the feelings behind each experience,making lifes stew all that much richer! Hugs and a great day to all,Laura

Quote I just thought up..lol

5-2-08

The fear of the truth silences people,to avoid this don't let it silence your soul
Author Laura Howe Today..lol

Words that a freind put on the board !

5-2-2008

These are words from Kevin ..a person I admire and look to for acceptance as he is a long standing member of this group...this meant so much to me to see and HEAR these words today..it was after a beautiful story he told of a ex-con ANGEL that he meet the other day that changed his life around ..it left me with tears of Joy & HOPE for the future! Hugs,Laura (his words below)
Now, as I open my eyes, I'm reminded of our angels here, who teach us. JONNAE, DENISE, RICHARD, CRAIG, LAURA, DIANE, and the new champ with the new heart...MARTY. Each has a unique, grab your heart, life-and-death overcome the odds story. We wouldn't know about them if they hadn't summoned the courage to choose LIFE!

Words taken from a "Lady" that has grace & intelligence & a heart

may 1-08

Since returning to the group there are a few new people that are SO BEAUTIFUL in so many ways..but HEART is the biggest way I could describe..very kind & gentle people...maybe it is because I don't know them really..lol...just kidding! I know in life we will again be faced with others that do not approve or have other motives..BUT ..IF i lived my life that way..WHAT life would I HAVE????? This is the BEAUTIFUL quote she added today & I am going to try to buy this book as I think everyone should read this!!!

When I Loved Myself Enough -
I began learning whatever wasn't healthy. This meant people, jobs, my own beliefs and habits - anything that kept me small. My judgement called it disloyal. Now I see it as self-loving.